A Rough Couple of Weeks

If you, my faithful readers, have been wondering why I have been neglecting you or if you my friends and family have been wondering why I have been neglecting you, or if you, my husband and children wonder I have been neglecting you, I only have one answer for you: there is just not enough Jessi to go around. Does anyone else ever feel like this? It has been a rough couple of weeks in the Brogan household. My good friend and coworker Sandi had her baby a couple of weeks ago (I know, I know there are babies all around me, but don't worry, I haven't caught the baby fever again, just yet) and being the loyal employee and burnt out stay at home mother that I am (yep, six months=burnt out) I headed back to work. Ergo, my kids had to start at a daycare, ergo Ben is being a big ol' pain in my keester. That is about as nice as I can say it. He has been pitching FITS everytime I drop him off and at the same time ripping my heart out of my chest, holding it above is little blond haired head, doing a little dance, throwing it on the juice stained floor, rubbing some graham cracker crumbs in it, and then stomping on it. To the layperson it might just look like a three year old having to be restrained by his teacher all the while yelling at me down the hall "MOM don't leave me in this place, MOM MOM MOM I have to ask you something! MOM DONT GO", but I know what it really is. It's awesome. Maddie on the other hand, LOVES "school" and it is doing some wonders for her. She has given up her binky (okay, okay, except at bed), is peeing on the potty and is about 50% less whiny than usual. Zach is pretty indifferent. He usually is happy when I drop him off and happy when I pick him up, although he did cry the other day when I handed him over and that was just about the straw that broke the camels back. But I stayed strong (or stubborn, or selfish...I'm not sure which it is yet). So between working as much as I can (I'm pretty much doing two people's jobs, plus our receptionist quit and then the replacement we hired got fired, so it's been good times at work too), trying to take care of stuff at home (which I feel like I am barely getting by at) and sleeping when I can, I haven't had a lot of time to catch up with all my friends. So, this is my public apology. I miss you all. Once my son returns to his fun loving, sweet self, maybe we will venture back out in public.